Hey ya'llllllll, how you been doinggg homies? ... A bit too forced ? Figured. Just trying to be friendly here, gosh.
Have you ever felt like you're just FORCING a relationship that ... just isn't "there" or how strong you would like it to be ? Well that's what Saira is going to be touching upon today. (Saira being me of course)
Please also bare in mind that I'm talking about Christ from my religious pov, and this can still be applied to other religions, just with a switch of names. My blog is open to all :)
Being a Christian is a tough journey, the second you understand what it means to commit your life to God, and to act accordingly to the scriptures, you can sometimes be taken back by what is expected of you and how you should live your life in order to make heaven. I was born into a Christian home, although the majority of my family is predominantly Muslim. Being born into a Christian home has its good points and its bad points. By being born into a Christian home, I liked the fact that I had morals to live by, and felt like the bible had a huge impact on my life and daily decisions, in helping me to depict between good and wrong. But, as I grew older I felt that life was just a constant routine and began to question my faith.
EVERY Sunday ... Church.
EVERY first on the month, Special Solution Hour.
EVERY last Friday of the month, Night Vigil.
and so and so on.
It also didn't help that my mum was a minister in Church, so I always felt like Christianity was just a routine. Dont get me wrong, I loved the vibe that Pentecostal Churches had, the music, the prayer, the songs. etc.
But I never understood what was SOOOO special about Christ. Yes I was brought up in a Christian home, but I never understood the big deal about God and what it actually meant to be a "Christian".
As I grew older, I questioned more and more, and was so overwhelmed witnessing the love and joy that people had for Christ in my church. People would be in tears crying as they felt the presence of the Lord. People would speak in tongues, people would faint. Many people see these things in churches as a joke and would say it is all an "act". But for me personally, I wanted to feel the same way they did, I wanted to come to church with a smile on my face EVERY Sunday, and not think of it as a routine to sing. then pray. then this, then that. I wanted to stop having a "forced relationship with Christ" .
I felt like I was forcing the "eyes being closed" in praise and worship.
I was forcing the "5 minute prayer sessions" when 2 mins into it, I had run out of things to say and pray about.
And most importantly I was forcing the "love I had for Christ". It's not that I didn't love him, but I didn't feel what others felt in his presence. I just felt like I was in a Church, doing my daily Sunday routine, and not developing the relationship with Christ that I wanted.
Many people today felt/feel this way when it comes to loving Christ, I know I'm not the only one. So stay tuned for Part 2 , in which I hope and aim to help you OVERCOME your "forced relationship with Christ".
Bare in mind, these will be just tips I will give, Lool, im not a professional advice giver, just a girl, with a laptop and a mind.
Remember that being religious is a gift, and knowing Christ is more than a present. Don't feel like you HAVE to do xyz because it says so or you've been taught to.
Understand why xyz is necessary, so stay tuned and I hope to see you in my next post.
God is Love
Rev Run.
Lool, sorry , I've just always wanted to say that ^.^
Let me do it my way.
PEACEEEEEEEEEE OUTTTTT YA'LLLLLL AND TURN UPPPP ! *SAIRA OVER AND OUT* *ENTERS SPACESHIP*
p.s. if you have any topics you would like me to discuss fell free to email me at sarah.oladokun@hotmail.co.uk. (I KNOW. Such a Nigerian surname, blame my dad.)
I'll try and get them done as soon as possible :)
see you soon my internet friends.
Still a bit forced ? I'll stop ^.^
sairassecret.
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