She was ...

Happy September everyone ! Today I want to share with you a poem I wrote a few weeks back. I'm WELL over it now and much better lol , but was going through my notes and thought I would share it with you. Hope you enjoy the read 
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She has a heavy heart 

A sensitive soul 

A creative mind 

But is still lost in her thoughts. 

Sleepless nights , constant tears , throbbing headaches ... This isn't how she imagined her summer to be. 

One by one she looked through her contact list 

Thinking of someone honest and true enough to share her deepest problems with 

Someone who genuinely cared and didn't mind her rants 

Her ? Nah I bother her all the time

Him ? Nah , he'll brag to his friends 

"You're thinking too deep" 

"Things will get better" 

"Give it to God in prayer" 

She had heard it all before .. 

So she kept it to herself 

She didn't utter a word to a soul 

Instead she smiled , snap chatted, tweeted ... The whole lot. And pretended she was okay.

Her family questioned her mood swings .. 

"It's my time of the month" 

Bingo

Worked every time. 

All she ever wanted was someone to look her in the eye and say "I know you're not okay .. And I care that you're not okay"

But everyone seemed so far away and distant

Too busy with their other friends to care about her 

But she was used to it .. 

So she couldn't blame them 

That's just how she believed the cycle goes 

Every night she tried to say a prayer

Which carried no faith whatsoever 

But at least she tried .. 

And every night , the same negative thought processes returned to her

no energy , no power and no encouragement of being the best person that she could possibly be ... 

She was  

A sensitive soul 

A creative mind 

Who once again ... was lost in her thoughts. 

HELLO SAIRASSECRET !

Helllllooooooo Everyone ! 

LOL, It's been a very LONG time hasn't it ? 

I made up for it though .. with a youtube channel ! LOL, stay tuned for videos every week and I hope you enjoy the journey with me. 

I am currently in the making of a new website with my OWN domain name ! Which I am crazily excited for, and when everything is up and running I will definitely let you guys know what is up etc.

I really appreciate ALL your love and support .. we recently reached over 15,000 views ! and I hope you are continuing this journey with me. 

Have a lovely weekend ! 

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Being A Christian is Hard

Being a Christian is not the easiest journey one can take at alllll. And I'm not even referring to the whole idea of 'sin'. Being strong in your faith is what I'm talking about... even in the hardest trials and situations and when you are at your lowest of lows, and you feel as if life is not on your side ... you have to believe that things will get better .. And that's definitely easier said than done. At the end of the day, we are still human and it's okay to feel that way.... Honestly, it's more than okay to feel that way.

ANALOGY TIME ! (You guys know I love analogies .. Just makes it easier to understand concepts if you ask me :)

Imagine entering a tunnel that you've been walking in for years and with every step it just gets darker and darker. Initiative or "common sense" will tell you to give up but it is your FAITH that will tell you , even though you've been walking for years, there is always light, I know there will be light at the end of this tunnel.

Remember that faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains - Matthew 17:20

Life has a very interesting way of discouraging people and knocking people down. But all in all, a positive mind and a positive heart will push such thoughts aside. Keep the faith !
Hang in there , the light is coming soon !
There's my little rant over lool just thought I'd share.
God bless


sairassecret
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THE IDEAL BAE ... ?

"My bae has to be 6ft3+, his head needs to touch the sky ... Short babies are a huge NO and I aint taking no risk with these 5ft8 guys before I get midget kids ! I need to NOT be able to reach his shoulders" "5ft7 ? You better 5ft out of my DM's" "A Cadbury chocolate bar skinned bae please .... Edible chocolate skin, hazel eyes ONLY" "He can only get my number if he has a car ... oyster ? what's an oyster ?"

And so on and so on !
Now, I know a lot of us have preferences which may be as deep as the examples I've given about (Don't be ashamed if you are one of the people who have preferences like those ... I sure was one of them!) But don't you kind of find it funny how we all have our own perceptions of what our "Ideal Bae" must look like, smell like, sound like and most importantly be like. And the sad truth is that it is VERY UNLIKELY we will find someone who reaches our preferences exactly. I'm not saying it's a bad thing to have preferences because hey ! we are only human at the end of the day, but the idea I'm trying to express here is that you SHOULDN'T ALLOW PREFERNCES to be your DOWNFALL when it comes to relationships.

It is very easy to allow your preferences of what your ideal "bae" must look and be like distract you from good catches that are right in front of you ! . If you have managed to scoop a boy or girl who matches your "ideal bae" idea, then good on ya ! But what about those who haven't managed to ?

When it comes to preferences, we can easily be blinded by good things which are staring right at us ! And that sadly is a normal thing, however how do we make that UN-NORMAL ?

Well firstly boooothanggg, understand that the "perfect boy" or "perfect girl" will not fly from the sky and meet you. But do understand that a decent boy or girl who may only tick your 4/10 boxes of your "IDEAL BAE" may actually end up becoming your "Ideal bae". I've been in a situation where I found someone who ticked 8/10 boxes on my ideal bae list. He was tall, Nigerian, Good looking, had money and most importantly he drove ! Girllllll, when I tell you this boy lacked PERSONALITY. I'm not even joking. As innnnn, I was texting myself because the convo was so dry. And it got me thinking ... this is a boy who was my "Ideal Bae" and the second he finally became bae, I realised that my "ideal bae" was not for me. He ticked my boxes but the relationship was a failure.

It had Me thinking, if my idea of perfection was him, why was I not in a flourishing relationship like I had HOPED FOR .. if he was so "perfect". And to be honest that's when it clicked ... Preferences will only be preferences, I could get all my preferences in a boy, and still NOT be happy. And yes, we all want our boxes ticked, but it is not everything that we WANT that we GET. I got WHAT I wanted in a boy, but did I GET Happiness ? Psh, far from. (sorry if your reading this ex ... Lol, this is a BIT DEEP ... your still a nice guy, just not right for me)

Don't allow yourself to turn down pretty decent and possible matches because you want a "6ft4" guy and the boy that is talking to you is "5ft7". Things could still pop off and you don't want to FINALLY get your preferences ticked only to find out your idea of an "IDEAL BAE" turns out to be everything you don't want in a boy/girl.

Understand that bae's will ALWAYS be about, you may not have found bae in 2014 ... and may be hoping to find bae in 2015. (IJN you will ! ) But maybe you already met your bae but allowed your preferences to turn that someone away.
Love always comes around and so does relationships. So my sairassecret tip for you ? Don't allow PREFERNCES for an "Ideal Bae" to be your downfall. When bae comes, you will know it and strong preferences like the ones above will not matter. Do not allow your preferences to take over who you are ... "Ideal Bae's" Don't exist ... but when you meet someone who makes you happy and you know you can be with ? *Ding Ding* There's Bae !


Hope you enjoyed the read guys, Have a lovely Christmas and New Year !
 I'll speak to you soon.

Toodles


sairassecret
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"The bible encourages Alcohol"

Hey guysss, today we are going to be talking about ALCOHOL ! Or as my Nigerian mother calls it "Hot drink" Lool. The bible talks about alcohol a lot, and some people may even be led to the conclusion that the bible encourages alcohol ... I slightly want to just confirm this a little bit. So sit back, get a cuppa, with 2 sugars and not that much milk (mmmm my fave) and enjoy the post !

Now the term "Hot Drink" which is what I am going to be referring to as "wine" in this post is mentioned a lot throughout the Bible. Leviticus 10:9 says "You and your sons are not to drink wine whenever you do into the tent of the meeting or you will die, this is a lasting ordinance for the generations to come" Now this passage was taken from the OLD testament, and I'm not sure what type of Christian you are, but me personally ... I believe the New Testament was brought about to abolish the Old Testament rules, no I'm not saying that The 10 Commandments shouldn't be obeyed, I'm saying that there are some scriptures that I believe Jesus came to renew and Leviticus 10:9 is one of them :)  Don't you think it's interesting to note that the first public miracle that Jesus performed was the turning of water to wine at the great wedding feast in Cana ? (You can read this is John 2) Therefore alcohol is a good thing, because that was the first miracle he performed. Even in regards to the last supper when Jesus took a cup of wine and gave it to his disciples.  Matthew 26:27 "He took the cup of wine and gave thanks to God for it" 
So if Jesus is performing miracles and turning water into wine then HEAVEN YEAH
(Instead of Hell ... get the joke ? No ? Alright Let me just continue with this post)
WE FINNA GET DRUNKKKK BOO BOOO ! TURN UPPP TURNN UPPP !

HOWEVER, just because the bible "may encourage alcohol" does NOT mean that it encourages being DRUNK. Let us make that veryyyyyyyyyy clear, okay ? :) Lool there's a difference between drinking alcohol and getting drunk off alcohol.

The bible in no way or form condones drinking to the point of drunkenness. Proverbs 20:1 says "Wine is a mocker and a beer brawler, whoever is led astray by them is not wise" So yes, the Bible does not stop you from drinking a little alcohol, but do not be over-indulged in it. The point I am trying to make here is that, yes, alcohol can have you feeling on top the world and can allow you to have a fun time. (Not that I would know through experience or anything ... ) But you can have a fun time without being DRUNK. You can still turn up the same way you usually do, but don't allow the idea of "I need to be drunk to have fun" to become part of you .. because that isn't the case.

It's very easy to fall into the trap of drinking to get drunk."Ayyy Saira, my friends having a drink up, you rolling ?" "No Bottle No Entry" And so on and so on, I'm not condemning any of you that drink .. because we've all been in different situations, even myself. However I just want to let you know that just because you drink doesn't mean you're a bad Christian.

The Bible DOES allow Christians to partake of alcohol in a very responsible way, Jesus said nothing wrong with drinking a little wine then and even now. If he saw nothing wrong with it in moderate use, we should see nothing wrong with doing so as well. But do not allow yourself to be in a situation where you are not drinking moderately and are just all over the place. You can STILL have the same amount of fun without being drunk. And if you think you need alcohol to be fun ? Then Damn!You must be extremely boring :(

If you know you are easily influenced to be drunk, just ask and pray to God for deliverance. There's nothing he can't do .. I promise you. I used to be that girl who was under crazy influence, trust me ... It wasn't pretty hearing stories about myself the morning after, and I'll just be like "damn" , how can one be under such influence through a "Hot Drink" ? I prayed to God about it, asked for help ... because I never wanted to be in such a situation again, and God sure did it !  I'm not saying your situation is my situation neither am I saying that you HAVE to pray to God and ask for deliverance. When you are ready ... you are ready. But don't allow yourself to be caught up in a predicament where God forbid, Jesus comes again whilst you are drunk,now that'll be a disaster !

So reflect a bit, if it's prayer pray, if you need to stop going out as much, stay at home on a few weekend nights .. .Do what fits YOU and I pray that the Lord will help you understand when the time for change is before it's too late.
So The answer to my title ? YES the bible does encourage alcohol but NO it does encourage being drunk.

Ephesians 5:18 "Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit" 

Thank you for reading, hope this helped ?
New post will be out by Friday , God willing.
Have a lovely week :)

sairassecret
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"Death made me stronger"

Hello my lovelies , hope everyone Is doing okay ? Great stuff !
Today I'm actually going to be talking about something a little much closer to my heart, which I know can apply to many people. I've titled this blog post "Death made me stronger" and it sure did ! I hope you are encouraged by this message and God Bless you .

Growing up people died around me , however it was people that I never knew directly, so maybe it was my mums cousin that lived abroad or maybe an aunt who I last saw when I was like 10. But it was never someone I could openly say I knew. However on the 5th of November 2011 that all changed. My uncle K passed away, and I can honestly say that was the hardest time not just myself and my family, but also for my spiritual life. The first death to ever strike me fully, as in I just could not comprehend the idea or thoughts of why God would do such a thing, a man who knew and feared God, was my mothers best friend and most importantly my closest uncle. I began to wonder and think  that if God is as big as he says he is ... Why didn't he save the life of my uncle? It's always hard hearing the sudden death of a loved one, especially one which doesn't add up, someone who was fine in the morning, the afternoon ... And suddenly passed away in the evening. I questioned my journey with Christ and almost hit rock bottom. I then began to think about my mum, and if anything she needed me and my sisters more than anything to stay strong, so I prayed to God and although I was still hurt and distraught , I was still trying to give my mum the courage to stay on track and to remember that the plans that God has for us are plans of good and not of evil. (Jeremiah 29:11)

What I want us to understand is that Gods timing is different to our timing. As we see our lives in terms of years, God sees our whole life in less than a day. Why ? Before he formed us in our mothers womb he knew us. He set us apart and appointed us as prophets to the nations (Jeremiah 1:5)
Death is never an easy topic to talk about, if anything it is the scariest. Thinking of who will cry, what your funeral would be like .... All these crazy thoughts. But what I want you to remember is that a soul who has died in Christ is NOT DEAD, but is living eternally with their father, their creator, their lord ETERNALLY in HEAVEN.  For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten son and said those who believe in him shall not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16) And I must
honestly say that is one of the he things that kept me going even after the death of my uncle. Because I knew that he left this earth in CHRIST, so there was no need for me to cry or grieve because he has left this earth to be with his creator and that it what I want you to go away with if you are still grieving a loved one who is now in eternal glory. Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted (Matthew 5:4)

Life is a journey and will always be, understand that we have a time of death, some earlier than we expected , some quicker than we expected, some that leaves us upset, sad and most importantly depressed. But remember that as long as you have Christ you have nothing to worry about. Pray that the Lord will strengthen you to cope with the loss of a loved one, pray that God will give the family of the loved one strength and also pray that you will see that person again when you get to heaven. That person who has stepped into glory and seen heaven feels no more pain, feels no more hurt but everlasting joy ! If you knew how much they were enjoying heaven , you wouldn't shed a tear ! Blessed are the dead that die in The Lord,  they will rest from their labour and their deeds will follow
them (Revelation 14:13) So keep your head high , stay strong and stay with Christ ! Not only is he the foundation of our lives but through him we receive eternal life , just like your loved one who died in Christ.

The Lord is your strength, hang in there and remember that heaven has gained a new angel.

In loving memory of
Uncle K, Mrs K and Pastor and Pastor Mrs I.

sairassecret
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"Let Them TALK"

Hey guys :) I'm getting better at these right, like I'm trying to keep my promise ... seeing as you guys are my inter web buddies ! So today we are going to be talkingggg about a topic close to my heart, lungs and kidneys (good joke or nah ? Nah ? oh alright ... moving on) titled "He said She said" and I hope you are blessed by the message.

So as A Human in general, let's not even talk about being a Christian, let's talk on a basic level, a human level. As a human I know how much people can talk about you maybe a few sly comments like "Did she even iron her clothes?" "I heard that she ...." "I heard that he ...." And this whole repetition of "I heard this and I heard that" seems to drive us coconuts. Sometimes it's as if people will just CONSTANTLY pick on something about your life. Sooooo, imagine being a Christian on top of that, do you know the way your name will just be FLYING out of people's mouths ? My goodness boothannggg ! You don't even want to know !
I am actually living proof of such things. When I first started making blog posts I heard a few sly comments from people saying "What is she doing ?" "Why is she forcing it?" "Does she think she's going to blow?" And at first I was ready to just FLIP ! Like "who do they think they are to talk about what I'm doing to grow in my faith ? Is it them who I am serving ? Watch when I see them and *bleep* -" Let me just stop there before you think I'm aggressive and the bible does say in  " .... let every person be QUICK to hear, SLOW to speak, SLOW to anger, for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God" (James 1:19-20)

The point I am basically trying to make here is that the second you give your life to Christ, not only is the devil out to get you (even though he wont because your a child of God boo !) people will also try to get at you for many reasons. Some being that they are weak in their faith and don't want to admit that they want to grow stronger, another reason being that they are just bored with life and another reason that all they like to do is TALK. And as a Christian, you need to just LET THEM TALK and not be shaken by the words of their mouth and even the thoughts of their hearts. If I had let the words of people affect me do you think I will still be blogging? Heaven no ! (instead of Hell ... get it ? Still a bad joke?, ouch tough crowd I got here -_-)  I know why I blog for personal reasons and even if it touches one person I would still continue to blog, 100 people criticizing my posts will not phase me, and you shouldn't be phased by them either !
People will laugh at you, lie to your face and talk talk talk just because you have something that they don't and that is CHRIST. So don't be quick to anger, keep them in prayers constantly and continue to focus on YOUR journey. In my last post I was talking about a "race", the race called life. (Check it out if you haven't ) Whilst you are running, people to your left and right will try to put you off reaching your finish line. DO NOT LOOK LEFT OR RIGHT. Just STAY FOCUSSED boo ! Because whilst you are looking towards your finish line, and focussing on running your own race, they are the ones who are taking THEIR eyes off their OWN race and loose focus. You can keep them in prayers constantly as we are not to wish evil upon our neighbours, whether they know Christ or not they should still be lifted and also helped. As the Bible says in (Romans 15:1-2) it says "We who are strong have an obligation to bear with the failings of the weak, and not to please ourselves. Let each of us please our neighbour for his own good, to build him up" so always let "brotherly love continue" (Hebrews 13:1)

As people it is easy to be put off just because of a few comments one may say about us but understand and remember that people DO NOT need to understand your individual journey that God has placed before you. Remember we are all different, you may be at stage 5 someone else at stage 2, that doesn't mean that the are inferior to you because you are stronger in Christ. But to them they can talk all they want about you being at Stage 5 because they ARE NOT IN Stage 5. So how could someone on a different stage understand your stage ?
Don't be thrown off by the words of others, you know the God you're serving and you know what is helping you get closer to him, so Hang tight boothang !
And if you are reading this and you ARE the one doing all the judging and the one who is always talking? "Do not judge or you too WILL BE judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you" (Matthew 7:1-2)


sairassecret
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