She was ...

Happy September everyone ! Today I want to share with you a poem I wrote a few weeks back. I'm WELL over it now and much better lol , but was going through my notes and thought I would share it with you. Hope you enjoy the read 
xx


She has a heavy heart 

A sensitive soul 

A creative mind 

But is still lost in her thoughts. 

Sleepless nights , constant tears , throbbing headaches ... This isn't how she imagined her summer to be. 

One by one she looked through her contact list 

Thinking of someone honest and true enough to share her deepest problems with 

Someone who genuinely cared and didn't mind her rants 

Her ? Nah I bother her all the time

Him ? Nah , he'll brag to his friends 

"You're thinking too deep" 

"Things will get better" 

"Give it to God in prayer" 

She had heard it all before .. 

So she kept it to herself 

She didn't utter a word to a soul 

Instead she smiled , snap chatted, tweeted ... The whole lot. And pretended she was okay.

Her family questioned her mood swings .. 

"It's my time of the month" 

Bingo

Worked every time. 

All she ever wanted was someone to look her in the eye and say "I know you're not okay .. And I care that you're not okay"

But everyone seemed so far away and distant

Too busy with their other friends to care about her 

But she was used to it .. 

So she couldn't blame them 

That's just how she believed the cycle goes 

Every night she tried to say a prayer

Which carried no faith whatsoever 

But at least she tried .. 

And every night , the same negative thought processes returned to her

no energy , no power and no encouragement of being the best person that she could possibly be ... 

She was  

A sensitive soul 

A creative mind 

Who once again ... was lost in her thoughts.