She was ...

Happy September everyone ! Today I want to share with you a poem I wrote a few weeks back. I'm WELL over it now and much better lol , but was going through my notes and thought I would share it with you. Hope you enjoy the read 
xx


She has a heavy heart 

A sensitive soul 

A creative mind 

But is still lost in her thoughts. 

Sleepless nights , constant tears , throbbing headaches ... This isn't how she imagined her summer to be. 

One by one she looked through her contact list 

Thinking of someone honest and true enough to share her deepest problems with 

Someone who genuinely cared and didn't mind her rants 

Her ? Nah I bother her all the time

Him ? Nah , he'll brag to his friends 

"You're thinking too deep" 

"Things will get better" 

"Give it to God in prayer" 

She had heard it all before .. 

So she kept it to herself 

She didn't utter a word to a soul 

Instead she smiled , snap chatted, tweeted ... The whole lot. And pretended she was okay.

Her family questioned her mood swings .. 

"It's my time of the month" 

Bingo

Worked every time. 

All she ever wanted was someone to look her in the eye and say "I know you're not okay .. And I care that you're not okay"

But everyone seemed so far away and distant

Too busy with their other friends to care about her 

But she was used to it .. 

So she couldn't blame them 

That's just how she believed the cycle goes 

Every night she tried to say a prayer

Which carried no faith whatsoever 

But at least she tried .. 

And every night , the same negative thought processes returned to her

no energy , no power and no encouragement of being the best person that she could possibly be ... 

She was  

A sensitive soul 

A creative mind 

Who once again ... was lost in her thoughts. 

HELLO SAIRASSECRET !

Helllllooooooo Everyone ! 

LOL, It's been a very LONG time hasn't it ? 

I made up for it though .. with a youtube channel ! LOL, stay tuned for videos every week and I hope you enjoy the journey with me. 

I am currently in the making of a new website with my OWN domain name ! Which I am crazily excited for, and when everything is up and running I will definitely let you guys know what is up etc.

I really appreciate ALL your love and support .. we recently reached over 15,000 views ! and I hope you are continuing this journey with me. 

Have a lovely weekend ! 

xx

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Being A Christian is Hard

Being a Christian is not the easiest journey one can take at alllll. And I'm not even referring to the whole idea of 'sin'. Being strong in your faith is what I'm talking about... even in the hardest trials and situations and when you are at your lowest of lows, and you feel as if life is not on your side ... you have to believe that things will get better .. And that's definitely easier said than done. At the end of the day, we are still human and it's okay to feel that way.... Honestly, it's more than okay to feel that way.

ANALOGY TIME ! (You guys know I love analogies .. Just makes it easier to understand concepts if you ask me :)

Imagine entering a tunnel that you've been walking in for years and with every step it just gets darker and darker. Initiative or "common sense" will tell you to give up but it is your FAITH that will tell you , even though you've been walking for years, there is always light, I know there will be light at the end of this tunnel.

Remember that faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains - Matthew 17:20

Life has a very interesting way of discouraging people and knocking people down. But all in all, a positive mind and a positive heart will push such thoughts aside. Keep the faith !
Hang in there , the light is coming soon !
There's my little rant over lool just thought I'd share.
God bless


sairassecret
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