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She has a heavy heart
A sensitive soul
A creative mind
But is still lost in her thoughts.
Sleepless nights , constant tears , throbbing headaches ... This isn't how she imagined her summer to be.
One by one she looked through her contact list
Thinking of someone honest and true enough to share her deepest problems with
Someone who genuinely cared and didn't mind her rants
Her ? Nah I bother her all the time
Him ? Nah , he'll brag to his friends
"You're thinking too deep"
"Things will get better"
"Give it to God in prayer"
She had heard it all before ..
So she kept it to herself
She didn't utter a word to a soul
Instead she smiled , snap chatted, tweeted ... The whole lot. And pretended she was okay.
Her family questioned her mood swings ..
"It's my time of the month"
Bingo
Worked every time.
All she ever wanted was someone to look her in the eye and say "I know you're not okay .. And I care that you're not okay"
But everyone seemed so far away and distant
Too busy with their other friends to care about her
But she was used to it ..
So she couldn't blame them
That's just how she believed the cycle goes
Every night she tried to say a prayer
Which carried no faith whatsoever
But at least she tried ..
And every night , the same negative thought processes returned to her
no energy , no power and no encouragement of being the best person that she could possibly be ...
She was
A sensitive soul
A creative mind
Who once again ... was lost in her thoughts.
